Can I manifest?

As the days get colder in Boston and our tiny condo feels smaller with the windows now closed, I am feeling a restlessness grow inside of me.  It's not really the weather, although it seems like a convenient mental diversion.  It's that I'm frustrated. 

I'm frustrated because for two years Scott and I have put our hearts, minds, time and money into building our retreat center on St. John and starting a not-for-profit organization for wounded troops - and it's not yet self-sustaining.  I love running the business and it has been my full-time focus since we started it.  But alas, the cost of owning property on St. John is gag-worthy, so it has forced us to make some difficult decisions about our lifestyle to continue on our path with the St. John causes.

We just sold our house and moved into a much smaller condo to cut back on living expenses. Last year we sold one of our cars and now share a '96 Honda Civic.  Scott (bless him) works full time as a Captain in the Boston Fire Department plus at least another 30 hours a week on our business.  And me, well I've gone "back to work" this summer in order to subsidize the cost of the business/charity.  Mind you, I know I'm VERY fortunate to have a skillset where I can pick up consulting projects like the one I'm working on now for a $4 billion manufacturing company.  However, I made a life choice four years ago to leave this work and follow a more less corporate path.

So part of me feels like I'm moving back to a place a wanted to transition away from.  My time and energy is now diverted from the work that I love to work that is less enjoyable and rewarding, but more lucrative.  Ahh, the yin and yang of it all!! 

My frustration had stirred up a bunch of whiny, desperate mental storylines....."I wish my book would just get picked up by Oprah's book club and all my financial woes would go away so I could run the charity full time", "Why can't 5,000 people sign up for the 30-Day Yoga Journey right NOW?", "Uh, I give up, I'm just going to play the lottery", "Why am I trying to run a business on St. John anway?  Why did I think I could succeed at this?"....and the stories go on and on.

So I then start to think about this idea of manifesting.  I read a book, a while back called Write it Down, Make it Happen.  The book is all about writing down in the present tense what you want to make happen - i.e. manifest it.  I tried it half-heatedly.  But right now, I feel like I really, really need to get a little bit of help.  And I don't want to wait for my birthday to make a birthday wish for what I need right now!

So let's test this out, I'm going to manifest the following:
I am financially grounded and prosperous with enough money to comfortably pay for running 10 retreats for wounded troops each year.  This financial prosperity comes with minimal effort and much enjoyment.  And for good nature, I'll say, "amen". 

I'd love to hear your stories of manifesting?  I'm looking for some inspiration.....

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6 Comments:

Anonymous said...

I jsut want to say that i trully believe in manifesting. The key is to thank the universe ahead of time for what you are about to recieve. About six months ago I read the book the secret. Im the book it talks about making a vision board for the things you want in your life, then every morning look at your vision board and thank the universe for what you are about to recieve. So I did just that, on my board I had a yoga studio, and finding my soul mate (along with other things). Well a couple of months ago a friend of mine that I had not seen in years opened a new age shop. She was looking for someone to teach yoga classes there, and the universe brought us back together. I now teach Ashtanga yoga in my friends wonderful shop. Two weeks ago I met a wonderful man and things could not be better. I hope this helps you just remember to always be thankful for what you have and for what you are about to recieve. By the way the stores name is the Chryslis Ctr. www.chryslisctr.com there is alot of inspiring articles on there as well.
Namasta

Florian said...

Thank you for sharing your inspiring story. And congrats on all the wonderful things you've attracted in your life. I'll be sure to check out your site. Deb

Anonymous said...

thank you for sharing ! I needed to hear that today! A great tool for manifestation is Yoga Nidra, and you already have your sankalpa. My teacher has a great CD called Relax into Greatness with 2 nidra's, a 20 min. as well as a 40 min. practice. you can find it at www.parayoga.com Powerful stuff!

Bob Weisenberg said...

Hi, Deb.

Thanks for filling us all in on your dilemma. I admire the sacrifices you have made to serve others in need. I know it will all work out in time.

Let me know if I can help in any way.

Affectionately,

Bob

Bob Weisenberg
http://YogaDemystified.com

Anonymous said...

Big Dreams,Ideas, take time. Your dream is a beautiful one. There might be a big rock/boulder/block in the way right now to me says, it's going to take some time to climb up and over it. It's not permanent by any means. Your's is an incredible cause and beautiful vision~stick with it.
I know in my own life I analyze a bit too, (way too much!)and freak myself out with "ohhh, this is a sign?" Then with a grateful nod to my beautiful life, living my dreams, I recite my mantra: THIS TOO SHALL PASS....
Sending some powerful energy your way,cuz I sure want to host a retreat there someday! In fact, I have absolutely no idea where I got your buiness card, nor why I ran across it and typed it into my browser this morning...but maybe now I know. :)
Keep yourself warm with memories on the beach in St. John....
Big Love Light & Abundance Forvever
Julie

wordLife said...

I appreciate your honesty and insight. I will definitely check out that book. I know that everything you hope to manifest will come to pass. Please let me know how I can help. Love you! ~ Kendra

P.S. - My manifestation story: About 6 months ago, when I unceremoniously left a job that I started out loving and eventually came to loathe, I was hashing things out with the universe, trying to figure out my purpose, both professionally and personally. Through prayer & thought & action, I sent energy out that said I wanted to focus more on building my writing consultancy. Throughout the summer, I've been connecting with plenty of folks who seem interested in working with me in one way or another, but haven't acquired any clients or leads that would really allow me to earn the income I need to take care of my family and grow the business. I was becoming disappointed and thinking about dedicating less time to my dream of owning and operating a home-based business and more time to finding a full-time job working for someone else. I even began to procrastinate on the few projects I did have because I started being afraid that I couldn't succeed. But every now and again, something inside me (and probably outside of me too!) told me that I could and would make this dream a reality. Just yesterday, I was contacted by two separate individuals about setting up long-term consulting relationships with their organization or program. This is happening at the same time that the temporary full-time gig I started at the beginning of summer is coming to an end. I'm learning that faith is very valuable.